Entering this new year I realize I still don’t love myself completely from deep within. Even though it is way better than it ever was and I have gone through so many layers of healing already.First my grip on life was my personality or ego layer.Thinking I was so smart, evolved, spiritual.She was arrogant and told me, see we are ...
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The energy in the world is very strong at this moment, everybody can feel it, opinions, separation, it is intensifying. It is really too much, I rather not feel it. But… I made a commitment… To myself, to my daughter, to all beautiful people I know, the spirit world, the universe: I am creating a new world! This is what ...
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I am so loving that we are heading into this new world where expressing, loving, opening up, showing ourselves with every feeling we have is more and more allowed and even appreciated. We can express our sexuality, our creativity, our intellect, our inner being, our emotions, our uniqueness. But all this also comes with learning ‘how to’ express from our ...
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Today I want to honor my father and all men.Today one year ago I saw my father for the last time on his birthday, 2 weeks later he died.I felt a relieve for him, no more suffering, and also i felt a relieve for myself.I never liked my father, he was hard and verbally fucked my brain and self confidence ...
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My life has been like a twilight zone, a world I was taught was real and my own world and reality but not knowing how to live and express it. I did not learn how to feel myself, or how to go my own way, I was taught to control and plan my life.The past years my intention was ‘to ...
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It is now 7 years ago since I surrendered myself to whatever wants to unfold in my life. I was struggling with a lot, did work that was not me and I did not know how to get out. So I started asking show me why am I here, how can I be of service to this world.The only thing ...
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After years of practicing shibari I wonder what it is that keeps me so in love with this way of expressing and connecting. Every time it is different and every time it touches me so deeply. It brings me to a place inside myself where I feel calm, playful, vulnerable and powerful. It is an experience of surrender for the ...
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In the field of intimacy and sexuality we are experiencing and opening up in so many ways nowadays. We have not really learned how to be sexual in a healthy way and so we are looking for it in tantra, at sexy parties, in couples clubs, in beautiful shibari, in bdsm, through intimacy and relationship coaches. How do we get ...
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When i was growing up there was a lot of judgment on sex, and especially a girl liking a lot of sex. I was that girl and i didn’t think there was anything wrong with exploring sex.There was shame & limiting beliefs on what is considered ‘right’ sexual behavior (ok there still is…) We keep everything in our shadow and ...
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Exploring ourselves intimately is such a deep, liberating, fun and challenging path to follow.Showing our vulnerability, our greatness and our true hearts is something we learn by taking it step by step.We all have our own little buttons, fantasies and preferences. Partly this is who we are and partly it is influenced by the relationships we had when growing up. Besides ...
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Our past will always affect the way we are today. Especially in intimate relationships our past will influence the way we show ourselves. What limits us many of the time relates back to when we were younger and got hurt or felt we were not seen. We are protecting our old wounds and we are trying not to get hurt ...
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Last night I woke up and suddenly realised I have been afraid all my life.Afraid to show myself completely in all my colours (especially in groups).What I bring to this world is light fun spaces where we can bring exactly what we feel and who we are, do what makes our heart jump, feel free in our bodies and from ...
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